Decisions Decisions

Well.  I am done.  Student teaching and everything.
I guess my next step is finding a job.  Believe me, I have been looking for a while.  Nothing has just felt right.
I have had a lot of thinking time and this is my plan:
1.find a job
2.work for a year
3.start school again for my masters
4.eventually become a professor at a university

Now I just need to work on step 1.  These are my other thoughts.  I want to have an adventure.  I want to find a teaching job outside of Utah.  Thoughts?
I have been looking at positions in Montana.  Today the secondary education department gave us a list of states that honor Utah teaching licenses.  How far away from home do I really want to go?  This is the question.

I am one blessed girly!

Blessing # 1- Running late for student teaching = able to see the sun rise
Blessing # 2- A cooperating teacher who supports me at all times and loves to talk about the gospel with me
Blessing # 3- I get to go to La Caille for free!
Blessing # 4- My dad shares his Smiths rewards so my gas only cost an arm instead of an arm and a leg
Blessing # 5- I was able to work after school today
Blessing # 6- At work my mouth started bleeding from getting my wisdom teeth out a week ago.  I was a little freaked out and didn't know what to do.  My new friend Brendan was working for city basketball that uses the gym at the school I work at.  He wants to be a dentist and shadowed an oral and maxillofacial surgeon for a while (the one that did my wisdom teeth in fact).  He knew exactly what I needed to do for the bleeding.
Blessing # 7- When I left work the sun was still up and I got to see the sunset
Blessing # 8- Came home to an empty house.  I have needed some alone time.
Blessing # 9- I was able to play with my friends last night and still have the energy to teach today

and Blessing # 10-  I have a Savior Jesus Christ who has paid for the mistakes I make everyday and through Him I can one day have eternal life.

I Know that My Redeemer Lives

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Easter.  My thoughts right now are very hard to put into words.  If I could I would take out my heart and put it in your body so you could feel the emotions I am feeling right now.  I literally ache with love for my savior Jesus Christ.  Life is hard, for everyone.  That is why Heavenly Father sent His son to give us the Atonement so life would not be as hard.  There have been so many times when I felt alone, deserted by my friends and family.  I feel broken and the tears just won’t stop.  Without fail I receive some type of peace.  Sometimes it comes in the form of emotional comfort and sometimes it is as if I am wrapped in a blanket of love.  Jesus Christ does that for me.  He makes those times when it seems I can’t go on bearable.  He has been with me through heartbreak so many times.  He knows how it feels to have the people or person you love reject the love you have for them.  He understands how I feel even when I fall in love with the wrong boy.  He knows the pain of watching my mother suffer with cancer.  He understood my loss of courage when I spent days in the hospital with my dad after his accident.  He will never desert me; especially through the trials of watching those I love face death.  He loves me.

Most importantly, He forgives me.  I am far from perfect.  I can be stupid.  I make decisions that are not in line with the plan of Heavenly Father.  I cause pain to others.  Jesus Christ has taken care of my imperfections.  He has made it so I can be forgiven for the mistakes I make every day.  He has given me a chance for Celestial eternal life.  Sometimes I don’t show Him that I want that.  Sometimes I forget my goal.  He does not give up on me.  He says “Melissa.  Someday you will be made perfect.  I know you can do it.  I love you.  Learn from this mistake.”  Sometimes I make the same mistake over and over and yet He does not give up on me.  He loves me.  He is my SAVIOR and REDEEMER and He LIVES.

4-5-12

Happiness is...

• jello
• crafting
• listening to Miley Cyrus with your 16 year old cousin
• eating hamburger
• ice packs
• pudding
• walking around barefoot
• cuddling with a giant dog
• laying in a pile of pillows
• laughing with your...cousin's cousin?...friend?... we'll just call him Heathie-poo
• freshly vacuumed carpet
• the smell of a salon
• realizing you have conquered college
• family
• sitting Indian style

Lets Talk About Me

I have been awake since 4.  I have puffy cheeks.  I feel like my face looks huge.  The medicine is giving me a headache.  Stupid wisdom teeth.

I haven't blogged for a while.  I just don't know what to say.  One of my BFFs Lauren recently blogged little facts about herself.  I am going to copy her.  That is one thing I have learned being a teacher.  Copying others is the only way to get through (just source them of course).

 Cheeks don't look too bad in this pic...

Melissa Jan Judkins

I'm a hopeless romantic.  I love love.  I love when boys do cute things for me and my friends.  My favorite books are historical fiction, especially the ones with romance.  Ever heard of Anne Rinaldi?  Love her.  Know of any other great historical fiction romance writers?

If I paint my fingernails it only lasts about a day.  I am a picker.  That is why my toenails are always painted.  That lasts forever.

If I could I would wear sandals all year long, winter included.

I eat peanut butter more than I drink water (I can't eat it at the moment though :( )

I love dramatic TV shows.  Jane by Design is my current favorite with Once Upon a Time close behind.

I am in LOVE with Luke Danes.  I wish he were real.  Don't know who he is? Watch Gilmore Girls.

I love my eyes.  They are green.  I love green.

I want to live in Ireland.

My day is not complete without me somehow throwing in a Kid History quote.  I can go for HOURS especially with Laur, Jer and Cam.

All my very best friends are boys.  Until lately.  I have girl best friends now.  Except Jamie Katherine Beal.  She has been my best friend her whole life.  Literally.  Since she was born.  She is really my sister.  Here is to 21 almost 22 years of friendship.

I give great advice.  I should really be a counselor.

Building forts is my favorite activity.  Especially with my brother Ben.  He is the best and he is only 13.

I wish I could marry my grandpa.  He is AMAZING minus one thumb.

I fall in love with boys very easily.  My heart is broken a lot.  Somehow I live though.

Audrey Hepburn rocks.  That is all.

My uncles are the best.  They will beat you up.  Don't cross me.

I want to be a drummer in a band.  Too bad I have zero rhythm.