I'm Going Nowhere Fast

This stage in my life can be pretty fun.  Okay, it is always fun.  Sometimes it does get old though.  Today was a great reminder of that.  Baby shower for a friend who is almost 2 years younger than me, what a great way for the world to say "why are you so slow?"  Madi, Shay, and I were sitting there talking like we do because we are bestest friends.  I take a look around and what do I see? Pregnant women, women holding their babies, and older women who have already had a lot of babies and are on to their grandchildren.  The 3 of us were the minority in this group.

So, you think it would be comforting having Shay and Madi with me.  Well it was, but not a whole lot.  Wanna know why?  Well because in 21 days Shay is going on a mission.  She has a purpose in life for the next 18 months.  Madi has a most fantabulous boyfriend and her single days are coming to a close.  Me... well... I uh... got nothing.

Reality has hit, and I have a plan.  I am on a quest to find my purpose in life.  I am going to be brave and take chances when I am prompted.  (Even if this means I talk to that really cute boy that I have a huge crush on)  I'm going to do it!  PURPOSE! You better be prepared because I am coming for you!  Full force with the Lord by my side!

I'm a Bookworm

So I love to read.  I would read a book a day if I had the time.  Some days I set aside for just reading.  Like today.  I worked until noon and have done nothing else but read.   My aunt often shares her book purchases from Deseret Book with my mom.  My mom will read them and then I get to read them if I want.  They are always stories about LDS girls around my age trying to figure out life.  They often help me see the humor in my life.  So the book I have been reading today is

I am liking it a lot so far.  The beginning was a little tough for me to get through.  Her life is too much like mine.  College graduate, living at home, searching for a place to start her career while working at a dead end job.  She just got out of a failed relationship with a guy who happens to have the same name as the guy I most recently had a failed relationship (you will have to read the book to get that information).  

I haven't finished the book yet, but I am close.  I am at the part when things are finally starting to work out for her.  This little piece of fiction is giving me hope that one day my life will be a little bit more successful.  One day.  For now I can focus on the other things that are happening right now and make the best of them.  This story has also inspired me to make a new friend.  A girl.  Boys are easy friends to make.  I am going to get out of my comfort zone and find a new girl friend.  Yay for adventures!

Anchors

So there is a song that has become the theme of my life lately.  I love Mindy Gledhill a lot!  Her song Anchor really explains what has been going on in my life the past few years.

Anchor

Mindy Gledhill

When all the world is spinning 'round 

Like a red balloon way up in the clouds 

And my feet will not stay on the ground

You anchor me back down

I am nearly world renowned 

As a restless soul who always skips town 

But I look for you to come around

And anchor me back down

There are those who think that I'm strange

They would box me up and tell me to change

But you hold me close and softly say

That you wouldn't have me any other way

When people pin me as a clown

You behave as though I'm wearing a crown

When I'm lost I feel so very found

When you anchor me back down

Chorus

When all the world is spinning 'round

Like a red balloon way up in the clouds 

And my feet will not stay on the ground

You anchor me back down

I told you all about my Boy Best Friends already.  They are huge anchors in my life.  They often hold me close and tell me they love the way I am.  Mark has been a big help lately.  I get really restless.  I freak out about stupid things and want to run away but he has really kept me grounded.  It is a good thing he is around or I might be in crazy land!  My lovely friend Madison has also become a huge anchor.  She helps me in other ways.  She is just there.  We just play.  Sometimes we talk about life but usually we talk about other things.  I really love my ANCHORS!

Fun with Madison!

Sometimes life is hard and all you need is some girl time.  What do girls do for girl time? Go to lunch, watch Psych, oh and of course create!  Especially baking.

We made healthy cookies!  Half butter half avocado!

We tried our hand at making our own fruit snacks. 

Lego fruit snacks!  They tasted good but were super rubbery. 

Then we decided to make beautiful pizza!  and we invited boys.  Mark LOVES pizza.

Seriously! Isn't this so beautiful??

Then we decided to make these fantastic brownies.  This is just the frosting!  Brownies include a cream cheese and mallow layer!

We like to bake.  It is fun!

Weird Dreams

I have an insane ability to remember my dreams very well.  Sometimes this really messes with my life.  Often I wake up really hating someone and then I have to remind myself that it was part of my dream.  There have been a few times where I have a very vivid dream and then not long after the dream actually happens; maybe not exactly the same way, but still.

So here is my very vivid dream from last night.

I am standing in front of my classroom.  I am teaching my child development class.  We are talking about the first trimester of pregnancy.  One of my students asks me what trimester I am in.  I look down and realize I am super huge and pregnant.  In my mind I am freaking out.  I'm not married!  How did I get pregnant.  Then a student raises their hand and calls me Mrs. Anonymous (I am not going to say the name because it is a real person).  I look down at my hand and have a ring on my finger.  I am thinking when did I get married?!  I was really freaked out.  I walk into the hall and run into my best friend.  I pull her into some storage room and start freaking out.  She calms me down and says "Melissa you and Anonymous got married 2 years ago. "  Well at this point I am thinking why did we get married?  This guy avoids me right now.  He would never marry me.  Then Anonymous suddenly appears and goes to give me a hug.  Just as he is about to hug me I woke up.  It took me a while to register that I am in my room and it was a dream.  It was so real!

So, all day I have been thinking about Anonymous.  It is so weird that a dream can cause such strong emotions and feelings.

Well world, I hope you all have happy dreams!